Monday, February 18, 2008
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screwed. my life gets really screwed up. can you imagine one failing four out of eight subjects? hell. it must be a miracle for all of you to see this. goner. i think i am so screwed. i had never ever did so badly in my life for exams. geography, higher chinese, physics and chemistry - all flunked. what crap is this? i bet i will fail my english as well. so 5 out of 8 subjects. screwed. i think i can go eat shit. and the worst thing is i have to go into this stupid focus group. holy crap. it's like being controlled everyday and studying there is just not efficient to me. hell. maybe getting in there will make my results improve? i hope so. but i also hope i won't get in, which is like damn impossible cause i already failed 4 out of 8 subjects. die. actually, i think i am over-confident this time. i kept saying the papers are easy and kept thinking i would be able to go to hcjc with this current rate i am in. this is pure bullshit. if i were to continue like this, i bet i can't even go to a polytechnic, let alone a jc. this is how bad my results are. and being over-confident makes me what i am now - a screwed up person. and i kept saying those NSKs are like shit, what about me? i bet i am worse than most of them. 'what goes around comes around' i think. if i keep despising other people, the screwed up one will always be me, not them. so i better change this shitty attitude of mine. and yes, work 10 times harder to get out of this shitty results. we are not talking about A now, just a pass will be a great feat to me already. ok, i got no mood now and it's time for me to stop rambling.
Posted by One Ice at 7:20 PM